Stupid Once Again

This thing is can be both painful and fun
It can be hard and easy
Stressful or not a care in the world
Happy or sad
Glad or mad
It can be fun and not so fun
Each and every person has one
And this things called life.

God breathed life into each and everyone of us, but that wasn't the life I was talking about. Yes, it's the life that your walking and breathing. But, it's not that kind of life. It's the life in which you take each step, and you can either go and do this or that. Life can turn out this way, or that way. It could be hard, or it could be easy.

But, I can tell ya, my life wasn't what you'd call easy for the longest time. You see, I like control, I like being able to control myself and chose what I want to do and where I want to go. I want MY WILL, I want MY PLAN in life, I don't want to follow God's, mines better. There's a beginning, and I know what I'm planning in the near future. Yeah, I love that power, I love the control of being able to control this thing called life.

But, God doesn't seem to follow that plan. He seems to not care about my plans, but has plans of His own. he doesn't really seem to care about what I want, he just does what he wants. He decides he wants me to fall, he lets me, he decide to put me through this, and does, and I don't even have a say in it.

It's so much easier, to slam him out, let him go, drop him off on the curb a few feet back. It's so much easier to take the wheel for ourselves, and go just where we want to, where we planned. I hate to be the one to break it to you, but you'll never get what you want, you'll never get your will, but you'll get God's. '

If I had a choice, I wouldn't live the life I life right now. It's painful and hard at time, it's a big pain, and sometimes I just want out, but don't we all. Sometimes it feels like all God's doing is making me go through all this hard stuff, and there is nothing good in life, but that's when God surprises you.

The truth is, is that we have to be able to let go of that control, let go of our own lives, let go of the burdens and pains that we hold so tightly, that we try so hard to hide from God. (how dumb are we?) We can't hide anything from God, he knows everything, including your future. He knows what you want, and he knows what will happen. He knows that there will be pain, but he also sees what's ahead.

It's so easy for us to just take control, but we have to come to the cross, come to Jesus' face, take the things we hold, take our own life, and lay it down. And maybe your running from God right now, and maybe your tight with him. But for those of you who are drifting away, is it time for you to come home to your Father's open arms? Is it time for you to lay it all down at his feet? Is it time to let go of what you hold on to and let God take control?

I don't know your life story, but I do know one thing, and it's this... no matter how hard it is, no matter where you are, God has a plan for your life, and maybe it's not your will being done, but I hate to be the one to break it to you, but it will never be your will, but it will be God's will all the way.